So recently, I attended a funeral for a family member. We all know that death brings everyone together, and this person knew half the people on planet earth. I knew about a quarter of the people there, and it became overwhelming real quick. Thought the gummies I took would help some, but no. We pulled […]
Joy can’t replace true happiness Joy comes and goes like a rushing waveJoy lies to you Joy tells you you’re happy, but it’s just a moment that will passJoy runs on its own timeJoy can seep out like a slow leaking tire or pass so fast. Lacking the motivation to be happy Relying on that […]
Each and everyday the thought of happiness comes to mind. My lack of and its existence. What is happiness? Some pursue it like it’s a trophy to be won after a competition. Some are born with it, and somewhere deep in the forest of life it’s taken from them. Some just have it. I wasn’t […]
The need continues to call out to me, Like a rooster when dawn hits. But yet and still escapes me, Like a forgotten thought. The need continues to call out to me, Like my order’s up. But in this restaurant, my order goes unfulfilled. Left starving for a meal I will never obtain. The need […]
Another year older should be something that I celebrate and shout from the mountain tops that I’m thirty one today. That is not happening, instead I am stuck with the nagging thought of if I even deserve to age another year. What accomplishments from a year ago can I bring into this year, and say […]
Maybe I deserve this. To be forever alone. No friends at all. A dry phone. No calls or text over here. Just another day of no random drop bys. Or hey bro what to grab a slice with ths guys? Or hey want to have a random movie night? Nothing at all just and empty […]
I never understood how I can get into this mood of loneliness when I have problems trusting people. Like you would think I would never taste the bitter taste of being lonely, but everyday it never fails. I came home to an empty apartment, because I live alone, and after a few hours it hit […]
Imagine this thought with me living your life like an everyday person, but feeling like you’re on the outside looking in anywhere you find yourself. This feeling carries over to your own personal relationships with family and friends, and even the ministry you’re a part of. You do everything to feel apart, but that nagging […]
The phrase ‘sorry for your loss” is annoying and generic to me, and don’t get me wrong I do use it myself, but that’s because we as humans have that phrase imprinted in our minds. Let’s be honest there are two main reasons we even use that phrase. The first reason is we really don’t […]
In My Mind 