Another year older should be something that I celebrate and shout from the mountain tops that I’m thirty one today. That is not happening, instead I am stuck with the nagging thought of if I even deserve to age another year. What accomplishments from a year ago can I bring into this year, and say […]
I’m not happy…and that’s okay I feel awkward and outta place in most rooms. Thank you childhood trauma Awkward teen years Failing young adulthood You’re welcome, barely keeping it together adulthood. And that’s okay…okay I hate the human race as a whole Trust in People is a void Connections not connecting Love… And that’s okay […]
These walls are the only thing that speaks back to me. Scam likely is the only friend that checks in on me. The Silence of my home is the only thing that greets me. My existence is a lonely one. Out of sight out of mind is the neighborhood I live in. These walls are […]
Left me to the wolves, and didn’t even listen to my plea. I begun to see why Age has enlightened me but it’s a scar that’s deep in me. I want to heal, yeah I do, and yes I am. Wounds slightly open. Memories continue to cut like a knife It’s a fight But I’m […]
Maybe I deserve this. To be forever alone. No friends at all. A dry phone. No calls or text over here. Just another day of no random drop bys. Or hey bro what to grab a slice with ths guys? Or hey want to have a random movie night? Nothing at all just and empty […]
I never understood how I can get into this mood of loneliness when I have problems trusting people. Like you would think I would never taste the bitter taste of being lonely, but everyday it never fails. I came home to an empty apartment, because I live alone, and after a few hours it hit […]
With everything that this world we live in has to offer, we sometimes forget to enjoy the simple things. The things that don’t necessarily add to your growth, but rather show you how to be at peace with all the chaos that goes on around us. Moments of peace can be more evident in our […]
Imagine this thought with me living your life like an everyday person, but feeling like you’re on the outside looking in anywhere you find yourself. This feeling carries over to your own personal relationships with family and friends, and even the ministry you’re a part of. You do everything to feel apart, but that nagging […]
So here is that idea of loss coming up again, but this time I want to focus on the loss that impacted me the most. As seen in the title that loss would be the loss of my mother at the age of twelve. I believe I lost her too soon, and in that same […]
In My Mind 