Question, and this is not to any specific person, but how can day that suppose to be a celebration turn into a day of regrets? A day all about where you not at in life at the age you are now. Instead of being joyful I sit here fighting back tears. I’m 27 and wish I can get a restart on life, but restarts are for video games only and reality is not a video game. I’m trying to push through and push out these sad emotion to enjoy another year God have gave me. But I keep catching myself asking God…Why me? I don’t deserve it but yet again you continue to bless me with more years. I don’t have nothing to show for it. And I know what you thinking, how can you call it a blessing when you regretting? Good question I’ll give you an answer as soon as I figure it out myself.

The happy birthdays feel like knives today, but I’m still put on a smile and say thank you as I bleed emotionally.

I haven’t put anything on this blog in a long time, and the first thing I put up is me crying. Yup this is me crying so I won’t do it physically.

I needed to share with someone because I felt like I was about to go crazy if I didn’t. Yes you right I can share my feelings with someone who loves me, but I don’t want to bother them with my silliness. So I came here to brother all you with my silliness. Yes it is silly because I have no right feeling this way. But this mind of mines like to remind me where I’m not at instead of keeping in mind all the things I do have. So to another year I guess.